Waiting Game

After almost a year out of work, I am engulfed with a sense of insecurity, panic and a bit of anxiety. Fear of the unknown really, of what to expect, of the rejections, of the frustrations that will come along, the task of preparing for an interview....just basically the ups and down of job hunting. Looking for a job consumes a lot of your time, effort and not to mention your self-confidence. The last time I felt this kind of job hunting woes was perhaps when I got out from college, when I barely had a clue as to what to do next. Otherwise, I have always considered myself "lucky" in finding work (if not work finding me), mostly with little effort--a few networking here or there, a job lead from a friend, a recommendation from a former boss, etc. So I am crossing my fingers that my luck will pull through. Nonetheless, I am preparing myself for a lengthy journey to stumble upon the job that would be worthwhile doing, provide my needs for mental stimulation and to a certain extent regain my financial independence. There is no reason (yet) to complain at the moment as I have not been sending my Curriculum Vitae as much as I would want to, given that most Europeans are out on a holiday. I just want to keep convincing myself that I will find something, eventually. Anyhow, if my worst fears happen and nothing comes out of the search, there is always the option to cross the English Channel.